I may have to postpone Day Four until Sunday. If so, I’ll post about it Sunday night or Monday morning.

I have to admit that the more I listen to your Surrender files, the more erotic I find them. They’re so warm and inviting. I’ll listen to them more even after this experience is over.

Using the red cloth as a touchstone was an excellent idea; it’s a connection to your control for the day and stroking it and holding it is calming.

Regards,

cdbtoo

After listening to Surrender 1 and 2 last night, I began thinking about the nature of giving up control to a strong woman (you for the time of the files and my Lady in very specific ways). This rumination is something that will occupy my mind today. I asked myself what areas of control I wanted to give up to her and why. These are questions that I’ve known I’d have to answer for a while now. It’s good to start working them out, I think.

I let myself enjoy the files without worrying about whether or not I would go into trance. They’re fun to listen to and, as I said earlier, your words are quite exciting and arousing. I’m looking forward to finding time to listen again later today.

I’ve already done an act of service for my Lady this morning by converting a videotape that is very important to her to a digital file for burning onto DVD. It took almost two hours, and that’s just the first stage of the process. Next I have to convert that file to a format my DVD authoring software can handle and then create the DVD — complete with menus. I’m a bit of an archivist so I’m getting a kick out of doing this for her.

I will, of course, write more about the rest of my day and any other act of service I perform for her.

Regards,

cdbtoo

Thank you for understanding. The next part of this post is from my Lady Wife.

My lord and husband can be a bit forgetful sometimes. We are both couch potatos adn tend to focus on tasks instead of each other. Giving him a task where he actually had to concentrate on doing things that show me how much he loves me is very nice. I certainly appreciate it. It just serves to confirm the deep and abiding bond that we share as man and wife.

Thank you again – We’re going out to do something romantic now.

Freemann & Emjayemm

What you have done so far has been lovely. I am not displeased at all and I’m sure your Lady isn’t either. If you had no contact with a Lady yesterday then you didn’t fail in your task. Sometimes circumstances don’t always allow for people to fulfill their tasks.

Please don’t feel sad. I would like to adjust the instructions. Today choose something you can do for your Lady that is romantic. It might be picking out a song or two and telling her why they make you think of her. It might be sitting next to her on the sofa while holding her hand and watching a TV show. Just pick something that is special.

I think this is the last day for you. I’d much prefer you do something for her than the tasks I assigned. That said, if you do not read these instructions in enough time, then I’d like for you to do them tomorrow.

The reality of dominance and submission is that sometimes things don’t work out the way we want them to. I can adjust and I know you can as well.

I am impressed by the effort you have demonstrated.

Almost forgot to answer your questions.

I don’t detect any affect Surrender I & II have on how I feel about the services I have performed during this experience. Nor do I feel that the fact that I am supposed to be doing this fro Lady Julia and under her control has had any specific effect. But It has felt good to consciously peerform these service, and others, as opposed to just doing them pro forma, or for my own benefit.

Freemann

I was embarassed before I read everyone’s postings, and now I am doubly so. I failed utterly to complete the main task for today. I did not even come into contact with any woman I knew that I could serve (I had a doctor’s appointment in the middle of the day) I stopped to do the grocery shopping on the way home, only to find that my wife had had to walk up to the local store to buy food because I wasn’t there.

I don’t know if I should listento Surrender I & II tonight, since I didn’t do my part today.

Freemann :-(

Web, I think that is very well stated. You have, as always, done so well with your obedience :)

Today I once again chose my X. She just moved back to the town I live in, and didn’t have a place to stay, so she is renting my extra room until she can get a place of her own. I wouldn’t normally do this, but today, I cleaned and vacuumed her room, and put her clothes in the wash. She came in from work late tonight and didn’t notice at first. When she started looking for her clothes for work tomorrow, she asked me where everything was. She then noticed that the room was clean and got really happy, thanking me more than once. It didn’t take long for me to think about why I had thought to do it, and well I got excited all over again.

I just finished listening to my MP3s and still am amazed at how quickly Lady Julia can send me into that magical room, and how those dials really work. I have to say I am coming up with some interesting ideas for those dials, and wish I could turn them up myself, LOL.