HomeDay Two’s instructions are a repeat of the previous day with two exceptions.
First, after listening to Surrender I, listen to Surrender II.
Second, choose a different lady to please on day two. Consider: does the change in the recipient of your service effect how you feel about the act? If so, how?
Be sure and listen to the instructions *very* carefully as paying attention to detail and following through is crucial to submission. If you comply with only a portion of my instructions, have you actually complied?
I know I said I might modify things here as the day passes, but I am awaiting reports for you :) That’s how I decide what I wish to do next (just as I would temper my response if we were doing this in person).
~ Lady Julia
January 13th, 2010
January 14th, 2010 at 9:58 am
Lady Julia:
Thank you for allowing to participate.
Please accept my apologies for the delinquent post.
The morning pause time is an important reminder allowing for a re-commitment to the service element of the experience, although one that is limited in time and scope.
I have elected the service tasks that you requested. The tasks were similar in nature, so perhaps because of that I did not feel differently about rendering them. Although the services rendered were limited I did have at least some sense of fulfillment in providing them.
January 15th, 2010 at 7:09 am
Lady Julia,
I completed the tasks for Day 1 by listenning to Surrender I. No interruptions this time.
I knelt and reflected on on my submission and todays task to serve. I was *excited and not in an elated sense* :-) but I will focus on my task.
More later.
January 15th, 2010 at 12:30 pm
Lady Julia-
Please forgive me for not posting earlier. For some reason I was unable to log onto the Internet from my home computer last night. I kept getting kicked off, perhaps some one else was using my wifi. I’m not sure why it was happening but it was very frustrating. I hope that knowing that I was doing my best to comply with your wishes will be enough. If not please let me know how I can make it up to you.
Anyway here are the details of my day two experiences.
I awoke a little late and momentarily thought of skipping the morning devotional because I was in a hurry. I instantly felt myself compelled to do as instructed. It really did feel as if I was being controlled. Very thrilling for me.
After I had knelt for a few minutes I rushed to get myself ready and out the door. When I stopped at the coffee shop on the way I noticed a woman approaching a few yards behind me. I waited at the door and held it open for her when she got to it. After I had gotten my coffee I noticed that she was just finishing adding her sugar or cream or whatever she puts in her coffee. I nonchalantly rushed to the door to make sure I was there to hold it open for her again as she left. Because this was a woman I did not find extremely attractive I felt that my servitude was even more gratifying for me than yesterday because in my mind there was no element of flirting. I felt I was more purely serving her.
I had a busy day at work but I did find the time to take my red cloth out of my pocket several times to reflect on the experience and the excitement it has been giving me. I also enjoyed listening to the Surrender I & II mp3s. I noticed that the obedience dial was never turned down.
Thank you Lady Julia for providing this experience which has given me such pleasure.
I love pleasing you.
-Jason
January 15th, 2010 at 1:03 pm
Jason, I can tell you are trying. An honest effort is all I ever expect as things can always get in the way. Thank you for sharing :)
January 15th, 2010 at 1:09 pm
Jay,
> I was *excited and not in an elated sense* :-)
Now you’ve made me laugh :)
January 15th, 2010 at 4:33 pm
I have to admit I borrowed the line from a certain Lady…….it made me laugh too :-)
I have just returned home from our office but before leaving I quietly washed the coffee cups and glasses, a task that is normally left to the administration lady. Nobody noticed me doing it. I suspect that when she returns to the office and goes to do it, she will get a pleasant surprise.
I felt tingly you know where and a little mischievous. My answer, if I was sprung doing it was ready ” With my wife away, I am missing doing the washing up!” Not totally untrue.
January 15th, 2010 at 6:00 pm
It’s always good to have a plan, Jay ;)
January 16th, 2010 at 7:40 am
Lady Julia,
Excuse for my late comment on day two. Yesterday, unfortunately, it was not possible for me.
With my red cloth in the bag and the thoughts on you I feel well and safe. Sometimes touching the red cloth is like touching a familiar person.
It has snowed the days much in my place of residence. When I drove with my car I saw a woman these her car freed from the snow. I stopped and helped her. She was very surprised but accepted my help. Together the car was ready fast and I drove on.
During this action I thought of you. I had an inner satisfaction to serve. I closed my eyes for an few moments and saw a smile on your face.
January 16th, 2010 at 5:58 pm
Yesterday went wonderfully, until I got sick late yesterday evening. I enjoyed kneeling and thinking about what I had done the day before, and what reaction I got from my X. It made me feel good to make her happy, and to make Lady Julia feel happy. :)
During the day, another opportunity to help a lady presented itself. When I returned from lunch to the office, a car was broken down in the middle of the road near our parking lot. I noticed, as I was parking, that it was an older lady. I quickly ran over, and got two other men walking down the sidewalk to help me push her car out of the street to a safe location, checked to see if she had gas, and let her use my cell phone to call her son, who luckily is a mechanic. I waited with her until he arrived. They both thanked me and I walked into my office feeling great.
Last night, just before supper, I fell ill. My throat started getting sore, and I had a fever and chills. I decided to go to bed early. I didn’t get on the computer, but I did listen to the MP3s before I fell asleep. It amazes me how fast I fall when Lady Julia says that phrase, even after a long time without listening to them. I am so glad I am doing this experience, and listening to her wonderful voice.
I apologize for being so late in posting my comment, and promise to do better tonight.
January 16th, 2010 at 7:15 pm
Web, you are one of my dearest friends. Even though I know you as well as I do, I never cease to be amazed that you are such a giving, caring person. The gentleness I see in you and all the others who have participated in this activity is something that I find wonderfully attractive in strong men. I am certain the lady you helped and her son must have been so grateful for your assistance, and I know you would have done it even if I wasn’t doing this activity. It’s just you.
I hope you feel better today.
January 18th, 2010 at 8:18 pm
Dear Lady Julia,
I have some good news, and some bad news…
The good news is,yesterday, after posting here, I went out to pick up some supper. While shopping I had the opportunity to be polite and friendly to a salesgirl, and to holdthe door open for a lady and her husband. Nothing much, you might think; what was significant was the cheerfulness and gladness I felt doing these little favors for strangers.
The bad news is that I was unable to get out today, so there was no opportunity to be of service to another woman besides my wife. I continued to clean up the living room and take out the trash.
I just finished listening to Surrender I and Surrender II. *Blink* Out like a light!
Freemann
January 18th, 2010 at 8:21 pm
That’s perfectly ok :) I am always happy when a man doesn’t extra special things for his lady :) You’re doing very well.
what was significant was the cheerfulness and gladness I felt doing these little favors for strangers.
Smiles
January 21st, 2010 at 7:55 am
Lady Julia,
I’ve already gotten a jump on Day Two by sending a small tribute to < a paid hypnodomme > . I’ve followed her writings about erotic hypnosis and she’s someone who’s ethics and motivations I greatly respect — much in the same way I do yours. She’s someone, too, whom I believe could help me in my quest for trance knowledge and experience, so giving her a tribute seemed a natural thing to do. I felt as though a I made a down payment on part of my future, strangely enough. What is more important, I feel very good about supporting, even minimally, such a commanding woman.
What this experience is doing for me, Lady Julia, is allowing me to access emotions and intents so that I can identify them and get familiar with them when the crop up in my life with my Queen. It’s taking away some of the fear of those emotions, and submissive intents towards her. In this case, familiarity breeds desire for more.
I’ll write more at the end of this day.
Most kind regards,
cdbtoo
January 21st, 2010 at 12:20 pm
cdbtoo,
I’ve really enjoyed reading your comments thus far. It seems as if you are really enjoying performing these acts of service. That’s lovely :) I suspect your Lady must be as pleased as I am. You seem like a very sweet man who would probably do things like this anyway. I’m glad to get to share some of those moments.
I did want to explain to you why I edited the above comment to remove the name of the paid hypnodomme. I know your comment is sincere and I appreciate your assessment of this Lady’s ethics and motivations and I suspect you are probably correct. It’s just that I do not want to use my blog in any way to promote any paid hypnodomme. I hope you understand.
January 21st, 2010 at 6:49 pm
Lady Julia,
Regarding the edit, I completely understand and should have remembered the moratorium on such mentions. I’ll be more careful in the future.
I am indeed enjoying performing these acts of service, as you suspect. I’m glad to have this opportunity to take a close look at my motivations and begin to consciously own them. I’m don’t consider myself to be but I do like to be of service. I’m happy to share some of this service with you.
cdbtoo
January 22nd, 2010 at 12:18 am
cdbtoo, I think it’s ok to enjoy performing acts of service. I feel good when I do things for people and sometimes that’s part of my motivation. When I hear of something horrible, like the earthquake in Haiti, my heart just breaks. I give to help those people but I also give to make myself feel a little better about feeling so helpless. The primary reason I help is for them, but it’s a little for me as well.
I think it’s the same way when submissive men serve. They do it to please the Lady, but yum – it feels good too :)
January 22nd, 2010 at 6:59 am
Oy. I just realized I had a couple of word omissions in that last reply, Lady Julia. I meant to say “I don’t consider myself submissive in general but I do like to be of service.” And I’ll add, now, that I do want to explore certain aspects of submission with my Lady. We’re moving in those directions, and in directions of control/surrender, that are exciting.
Speaking of exciting, I have to say that listening to Surrender 1 and 2 last night was arousing and subtly intense. You have a way with words and vocalizations that seem to have a physical impact. I enjoyed following your voice down that path of surrender for the length of the files.
Regards,
cdbtoo
January 22nd, 2010 at 10:13 am
I let myself enjoy the files without worrying about whether or not I would go into trance. They’re fun to listen to and, as I said earlier, your words are quite exciting and arousing.
That’s perfect and precisely what I would recommend.
Your gift to your wife today is very nice and I’m sure she will be quite happy :) It’s lovely to see your obvious love for her. I really am touched by seeing devotion such as yours.
Thank you for the feedback with regard to the surrender files. I’m glad you enjoy them.